Bouyant

I find myself floating
wondering when it got this serious
when i got
here
didn't know the cuts ran so deep
the damage
way too substantial to tote
yet
i thought i had
taken stock of what i lost...
...and gained
of what needed to be thrown out
and what needed to be fixed
more importantly
what needed to stay...
for a fragile time in my life
where connections and connotations
were conflicted and construed

...my heart beats still
keeping me connected to the part of me
which is
human
imperfect
unsure
insecure
nervous and neurotic
hiding beneath my own layers of rejection
and fear
surfacing but for a moment
yet lingering for a lifetime...

-Yoshi